welcome 2

Currently, my dream is to move out of Orange County by the end of the beginning of 2027. I appreciate OC for some parts, but I think I’m ready to experience more in my 20s. I’ve been needing more diversity frankly, which I’ll maybe write something about whiteness and my relationship with it later. I’ve been dreaming about either New York City or San Francisco.

I lived in San Francisco for a semester, and it was magical. Anyone would say it was magical and life-giving. If you hate SF, then we probably shouldn’t be friends. Deadass. My dream would be to either work at a coffee shop or in coffee doing community/events work. I just love a good pop-up which highlights small businesses, collaboration, people, and usually good food/products/drinks. The city is also a perfect place for me to wander? Talk to strangers? Experience good parks? Another dream job would be to work in some humanitarian sector. Maybe human rights work at a hospital? Or at a non-profit? Maybe I’ll pursue my masters there? I’m not too sure, but that’s the great thing about dreams is that they are dreams! Doesn’t have to be completely thought-out, just an idea that I vision for myself! That I hope for myself!

NYC on the other hand, I only been to once for a week, and I think it would challenge me during this time of my life. I think we all need to be in discomfort in some way or another… If I moved to NYC, I know that I would be unstoppable for sure. I think about Emily (shoutout) who made the move, and I think that’s awesome and so cool. When I went to NYC, it was also magical in its own ways. I’ve never seen that many people reading on the subway. It’s a place that is artistic in itself, and appreciates diversity. There’s so many things to do- who would not want to be in NYC in their 20s? No judgement. I think that many people find it to be impossible with the economy which I want to validate financal concerns. But I don’t ever want money to come in the way of dreams. People make it work! Though it may not be ideal, I can make it work. I can do it!

So yeah! Dreams of living in a new city and experiecing new things. Meeting different people with such drastic backgrounds as me, someone who has only stayed in California for all their life! Maybe a new job that makes me feel humbled. I want to be uncomfortable and challenge myself especially where I’m trying to still grow and find more parts of who I am. I probably will regret saying that later when I’m actually in it, but good on me for knowing what might be good for me….

My dream recently has been that friendships are forever. I know love because of my friendships, especially my female friends. Who would we be without our friends? I wish that friends would last forever and forever, that nothing would change. But change is inevitable. Friends grow and change and stay and leave. I’m 22, though I feel that I’ve lived for 70 years, there is just so much life to experience. And knowing that, friendships are to look different as I keep living. As people change, relationships change. I guess the question is how well can I adapt to this change? I will also change as I get older and will my friends stay by my side? I will dearly miss how my friendships are right now. I can also grieve some of the changes in my friendships, but also look forward to the growth and fruitfulness of other friendships and those to come. How pure and beautiful are friendships. I am so lucky to have such wonderful friends. Friends that are good friends. Cheers to those friendships that ground us, humble us, love us, and hold us.